
Tried to flex some digital art since my last weeknotes… and no, this one isn’t mine, it’s by Marek Pavik, and I found it on Unsplash.
Why? I’m a fragile artist.
Along the way I discovered a few things:
I remember, I am an artist
Just writing that, and posting it online for the world to see oddly feels scary. But why? I have been an artist in some fashion my whole life. In my 20’s I self published poetry books and zines. I was a union card holding musician. I drew. I wrote. I yelled at the top of my lungs “Look at me create! I dare you to stop me!”
And then… I stopped.
Food. Rent. Bus Pass.
Car. Insurance. Phone Bills.
Cable. TV. Internet. Computer.
Family. Mortgage.
Diapers. Toys.
Provide. Summer Camps. Swimming Lessons.
Toys. Oh the Toys.
Care for others. Take care of others.
One of the classic nay saying phrases from even personal help book on the planet ringing in my head, “Art doesn’t pay for these things.”
But it could.
Geek & art is complex
A while back I removed windows from all my personal computers. I switch every non work computer to Linux ( Ubuntu for those curious ). And that fared well until… well… this.
Turns out Adobe and Affinity don’t do Linux. So that digital art… there are ok alternatives. I’ve been adjusting fine to Inkscape. Haven’t done any full photo editing yet, to really hunker into the choices that work for me.
Audio and Linux are overly complex. It does show how much magic is required for good digital sound. I have yet been able to figure out how to get music to sound as good as it should. Drivers, hack on hack on hack. And while I can do it, why do I even have to?
I haven’t even gotten into real audio editing. I am a well trained Adobe Audition editor, and I’ve had to hobble on Audacity a few times. And it ended up…ok. Again… I could do it… but why did I even have to?
Need to get back …
Again cliché, but it’s time to get back. Create. Try something different. Throw it against the wall and see if it sticks.
Practice. Experiment. Find time for it. Nurture it.
Maybe then, I’ll feel brave enough to share it… again.